Tears, turbulence and thankfulness

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Kako ste? (How are you?) Dobro! (Good)
Now, little conversations as this are nice, but apparently not the whole story. So, may I give the real answer to this question?
You might see all nice and happy pictures on this blog. Beautiful, artistic girls, a nice boy, healthy kids, a brave family, what found something meaningful to do with their lives, strong, balanced, focus in life, intelligent…Now, be sure that this is not realistic.
At times it feels as if we are together as a family on the trampoline. This might seem fun, but when we’re all jumping a different jump, the whole trampoline gets out of balance. Tears and turbulence are all too familiar. We have weakness, grumpiness, exhaustion, tears, unsettledness and fear once in a while.
A friend of us, sensed this at distance and sent me this link: About missionary mommy wars, thank you, Thamar.


But I got a gift especially for those days. I was reminded of it again on Valentines day, what was also one of those days that the exhaustion came over me. Just reading in my little book: Jesus Calling from Hye-Jin, where the Bible verse pointed towards Jer. 31:14. This made me ponder back to our commissioning and those weeks of our leave.
It was a couple of days before our move, around half October that I asked for some encouraging words in time I would need it. And it is now that I was just reading this notebook again. I am so glad with this precious gift! And I want to share a few of the quotes here.
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart
and try to love the questions themselves….
Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you
because you would not be able to live them.
And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now.
Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it,
live along some distant day into the answer.”
– Rainer Maria Rilke
I close with a prayer from St. Brendan, I read this a couple of weeks ago in the newsletter from Peter Tate, our friend. And we take this with us in our hearts when we head of to Hungary and beyond for ten days.
Help me to journey beyond the familiar
and into the unknown.
Give me the faith to leave old ways
and break fresh ground with You. 

Christ of the mysteries,
I trust You to be stronger than each storm within me. 
I will trust in the darkness and know that my times,
even now, are in Your hand. 
Tune my spirit to the music of heaven,
and somehow, make my obedience count for You. 
I am thankful that you all journey with us. Very thankful actually.


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