Our friend Jantien, recently became a mother after nine years of waiting! She wrote a lovely text in which she played with words and perspectives. I asked her if she wanted to be a guest blogger. And she agreed!
Quite a change to have such a little one to take care of. Is n’t he the cutest!
Here she writes:
Thinking how I can organize refueling moments … I’m sitting in the garden. I hear Olov in the background … and I wonder; is he almost asleep … or should I just take him with me … those budding mom questions and insecurities. And as I often do, I try to do everything at once. Making motherhood my own, time for myself, time with others … I wonder what I would like to do now … just nothing. Just carefree in the sun on the grass …
Meanwhile, I write my notebook, listen to Olov, think about what we are going to eat tonight and whether I will go out today or not, what motherhood looks like, how things are going with me and with Jan and with people around me, and how it all goes on … and on … and on … and on … And that in a single moment. I can see the grass from the corner of my eye. Olov is silent. And suddenly remember me;
Jantien, you can do it now. Lie in the grass. Do nothing at all, take a look around you. See the sky, feel the sun. Even if it is only one minute. Just one minute! And there were more. And after I had just stretched out, I took some pictures. And then I suddenly felt it; breathing space in my head, thankfulness. For nature, for Olov, for being a mother, for Jan, for people around us, for flowers, for so many things.
“16 There will be an abundance of grain in the earth, On the top of the mountains; Its fruit shall wave like Lebanon;
And those of the city shall flourish like grass of the earth.